Friday, July 27, 2018


I haven't been blogging regularly lately - and haven't been reading other blogs - because of an overwhelming avalanche of personal problems that have been completely sapping my time and energy.

No need to go into details (it would take too long), but I will admit that there were moments so dire that I was almost considering Felo de se.
Don't panic - it's nothing sexual. Look it up.

On the bright side (assuming that there possibly is one), I think there may be a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. 

On top of all the big problems, I've also been plagued with lots of little problems which seem to emerge simply to maintain my acute state of perpetual anxiety. Like the plumbing disaster that happened in my house a few weeks ago.

Today was typically chaotic. 
When I crawled out of bed early this morning (with less than two hours of shuteye) I noticed that there was absolutely no water pressure anywhere in the house. Every faucet that I turned on yielded only a pathetic trickle.

I initially panicked - assuming that there was some kind of a drain blockage or - worse yet - a major leak somewhere.
After an hour passed - during which my panic escalated to a maniacal frenzy - the water pressure suddenly returned to normal again.

The problem undoubtedly had to do with an outside water line - and not something in my house.

I breathed a BIG sigh of relief.....

.....until I realized that I had to go into town today. My cats were completely out of cat food. Not a morsel left. There was no way I could avoid going.

So I gathered my pennies together - hoping that somehow I'd have enough to get chow for the felines and gas for my car.

As I navigated the endless, winding, harrowing mountain roads - I kept cursing myself for ever getting the insane idea of living in a rural area.

I'll fast-forward through the entire ugly ordeal and get to the part where I finally arrived back home. 

After feeding the cats, I got a bad migraine which forced me to lie down.

I was probably asleep for a blissful hour, when an incredibly HUGE CRASH woke me up.

My initial groggy thought was that one of the cats broke something - - but this crash was much bigger than anything a cat could do. 

I quickly scanned the house and found  disaster in one of the bedrooms: a shelf in the closet fell off the wall and everything on it crashed to the floor.

I'll interject here to say that the lack of space in this small house has been a major issue ever since I moved here.

My house in Texas had huge walk-in closets and ample storage for everything. The dump that I'm presently living in has tiny closets and no room for anything. Junk is crammed everywhere simply because I don't know what to do with it.

For your intense viewing pleasure I have photos:

 I should have known that the flimsy shelf wouldn't withstand the weight of all the clothes and junk.

 The only thing that broke was a pair of heavy marble bookends that I got in Mexico many years ago.
They should have never been on that shelf, but there was nowhere else to put them.

 Only the base broke - - it can possibly be repaired.
Fortunately, the clock next to it didn't break.

I used to keep this clock on the fireplace mantel when I lived in Texas. 

I'm in no mood to fix the closet shelf. I'll probably examine it tomorrow.

This blog post was TOO LONG, but what the hell - it's free entertainment.


  1. Sorry to hear about the bookends. Glad to know the clock's okay. the broken shelf is just more work for you to do. its a damn shame.

    1. It's now a day later and I still haven't tried to fix the shelf. Maybe I'll look at it tonight....
      I was a fool to put all that heavy stuff on such a flimsy shelf.

  2. Good grief! Always something. I hope it won't be too difficult to fix the closet shelf. At least you survived the trip to town and the furbabies have food. BUT--I would be less worried about you if that HAD been something sexual. :( Get some sleep. Lots of it. You need some rest and quiet--no more crashes.

    1. Heck, I haven't had a quiet, restful day in forty years (*smile*). I'm used to perpetual high anxiety. On a positive note - at least all these problems and annoyances are keeping me busy.

  3. Don't be feeling too awful about the closet incident, Jon. Been there, done that … and to add insult to injury, Mr. Wrong blamed me for it.
    Glad to hear you're sensing light at the end of your tunnel!

    1. With my "luck", the light at the end of the tunnel will turn out to only be a dead end with a reflection.

      I was rather surprised when the closet shelf collapsed, because I had everything piled on it ever since I first moved here (over three years ago). It waited until I was in bed with a migraine to collapse...

  4. I'm sorry things have been so sucky for you lately, but it was really good to see your smiling face turn up in the comments on my latest post. It's good to see you back.

    No matter how bad things get, PLEASE don't resort to felo-de-se. Believe it or not, I actually understand the allure of giving in to the temptation, and must confess to having succumbed to that temptation when I was a teenager... but I survived, and things DID get better. I sincerely hope things get better for you, too. And soon.

    I went back and listened to your rendition of "Rhapsody in Blue." That's one of my favorite Gershwin pieces, and you performed it beautifully.

    1. I had several half-hearted attempts at suicide when I was young. I even hacked my wrists with a pair of scissors once. I soon came to the conclusion that life is precious....despite all the crap we have to go through.

      It's nice to know that you missed my visits to your blog. I did, too, but I was just too mentally and physically exhausted to participate in Blogland.
      I'm also delighted that you enjoyed my rendition of Gershwin's rhapsody. It's one of my personal favorite recordings - mainly because I don't often perform that style of music.

  5. Hi Jon, As much as you hate making the trip to:town I wonder if an Amazon Prime account might make your life a bit easier. (No, I do not work for Amazon but also live in a very remote area). It would be nice having cat food come right to your door and with the Prime account it would be free shipping.
    Your invisible friend, Susan

    1. Hi, Susan - it's always nice to have an invisible friend. I never thought about having an Amazon Prime account - but it's definitely a good suggestion. I dislike driving to town so much that lately I only go once or twice a month. Occasionally having things delivered to my door would be wonderful (especially if the shipping is free).

      Thanks for your suggestion - and don't always remain invisible.

  6. Jon, I hope all the mishaps are repairable. We seem to be in the same cosmic entropy belt lately. I just now stepped on my eyeglasses, which had fallen silently onto the carpet. They made a loud pop under my heel. I hate stepping on my glasses, especially if they're on my head.

  7. I can relate to your mishap, Geo. A few months ago I sat on my eyeglasses! They were on the edge of my bed (and didn't make much noise). I can't see a damn thing without them.

    I wear contact lenses when I go out - but I usually wear glasses when I'm home alone.

  8. Jon,
    I've experienced those loud sounds myself. When we lived in Pennsylvania I heard a loud "BANG!" I couldn't figure out what it was. Next morning I found out. My new Subaru Forester that I had JUST purchased had the glass broken on the driver's side of the car and scratches in the paint. The spring of the overhead garage door had sprung and slammed agains my new car! That "little accident" cost me about $700 to repair. I've had a couple of loud bangs here too, not as costly though. Always an adventure.

    1. Wow, Ron - what a HORRIBLE thing to happen! I remember when the same thing happened in my parent's garage. The garage door spring broke and made a resounding crash, but fortunately there were no vehicles in the garage at the time. Those springs are extremely dangerous.


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