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Bad news is coming
I'm eagerly (but completely unnervingly) awaiting my upcoming radiation treatments next week (see my previous post).
As a hardcore pessimist, I seldom believe in happy endings......and I'm skeptical of random optimism.
FLASH!!!!
EXACTLY AS I'M WRITING THIS BLOG POST, I just received very bad news from my social worker The notorious Dragon Lady. I KNEW that my radiation treatments (supposedly) scheduled for next week sounded too good to be true.
Every time The Dragon Lady walks into my room she is the bearer of bad news. This is an absolute.
My first radiation treatment for the cancerous bleeding "wound" on my arm was supposedly scheduled for Tuesday the 16th. Now I've been informed that on my upcoming Tuesday appointment, they are only going to photograph and measure my "wound." The radiation treatments are delayed and won't begin for TWO MORE WEEKS!!!!!!
I truly almost perished from the shock.
There is no way possible that I can wait for two more weeks. I want to go home, and it would be very dangerous with a frequently hemorrhaging arm.
I completely wasted the past five months, while waiting for my arm to be treated since the beginning of APRIL - - and they kept stalling, and now they're pulling this bullcrap on me.
I swear, the people who I'm dealing with are all completely incompetent.....or certifiably crazy.
ANOTHER FLASH!!!
As if this bad news isn't enough, another BOMB has been dropped on me. I've just been informed that they're going to move me to another room!!! This has been done FOUR previous times.
I'm so furious that words are starting to fail me (which isn't easy).
Okay, I just took a deep breath to calm myself down. It didn't work.
I'll go to my appt. next Tuesday. And no matter what transpires, I'll still request a discharge from this prison.
What more can I say?????
Oh, yes.....
early this evening the Amish choir came to sing hymns. Their voices are remarkably beautiful
"Softly and tenderly Jesus is calling...."
One of my absolute favorite hymns
Jon 😇 occasionally angelic
Have you ever heard Cynthia Clawson sing this hymn acapella? Absolutely astounding!
OMG! Hang in there. I've never had radiation treatments, but I my dad did long time ago and I believe he had to go in the first time to get drawn on and such so they knew exactly where to do the treatments. I do remember he said the actual treatments are fast and they didn't bother him, so I hope that is true for you. Hang in there, Jon.
ReplyDeleteYou're right, Rita. The treatments are only about 15 minutes. Radiation mostly makes you sleepy. I had seven weeks in the summer 2023.
DeleteYou have made it this far. Don't worry. 💙
ReplyDeleteWith all I've previously been through - - - I'm worried.
DeleteAfter reading your previous post, Jon, I could sense how hopeful you were and with good reason. But, this update was totally demoralizing. As much as you want to go home, until your arm is no longer bleeding so much it seems dangerous. That social worker is a disgrace.
ReplyDeleteI finally thought my arm would be treated and I'd be going home. The prospect of that seemed too good to be true. Now, it has turned back to being a never-ending nightmare. I am beyond disgusted.
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