Unexpected setback, serious medical condition. I am in extreme pain and right now there is no chance I can ever go home.
My depression is so severe that I no longer want to live. I've had enough torture.
My optimism collapsed. There's nothing left. Nothing.
I don't want to give any bogus updates. I don't want comments. It's all completely useless.
Jon
I can no longer save myself
I'm going to die in this vile putrid f***ing prison.
