Relief? Of course. Christmas is over! Nothing now but a passing memory. Not only relief, but also release from holiday bondage.
Perhaps you enjoyed it and want no release.
As for me....
This Christmas Eve and Christmas Day were so unbearably miserable and appalling that I won't dare attempt to describe it.
It would be much too painful.
I spent Christmas in a chaotic insane asylum. Screaming and yelling inmates, horrible food. A nearby television (some other room) blasted full-volume all day and most of the night. I had to use makeshift earplugs.
Peace on Earth. My ass.
I haven't told the worst. I wouldn't dare.
The good?
I had this room to myself. My roommate was taken to the hospital for a bleeding ulcer.
He came back yesterday....pissed in his bed and it overflowed to the floor, heading towards my bed.
Joy to the World!
Damn the world. How the heck did I get here? How the hell do I get out??
Illustrations for you pleasure
To my left....
An enthralling window to see
To my right....
The curtain that seperates me from my enchanting roommate
It's an absolute delight to wake up and face another day.
BUT - - - -
Just before Christmas, there were people bearing gifts!
A group called Visiting Angels brought me a big package! It contained a new pillow, a new blanket, a (yes, new) shirt and pair of pants. Slippers.....and a word puzzle book.
I was pleasantly astounded.
THEN
One of the workers here brought a lovely gift bag, containing at least a dozen edible goodies.
A blue gift bag, these are a few of the contents.
A chocolate caramel reindeer with pretzel antlers
Holy goodness - - there is a Santa Claus!
The kindness of others always makes a very positive impact. Thank God for caring people.
I am truly in the most serious depression of my life. I have considered ******* to escape. And I'm not jesting.
These unexpected gifts buoyed my spirits. Simple things mean a lot.
What's next?
New Year's Eve.....
and perhaps a new path towards light.
...do I use too many dots?
Don't you wish I used some of my AI creations? Of course you do!
Jon ⛄️🌲❤️🌲⛄️
a lousy post, but I can't be perfect or charming all the time......
Can I?
Hurray for kind people. Sorry about the rest of it! And thank you for continuing to blog. ❤️
ReplyDeleteThank you for taking time to read my blog. Venting my feelings in words is my only salvation. 🧡
DeleteMaybe not perfect and charming all the time...but...a "keeping it real soul." Who the hell is perfect and charming all the time anyhow? What a bore. I missed that boat decades ago and could care less at this point. We all appreciate your honestly...and some days/weeks/months/years.... are just shit with a ribbon on it. Mine is usually missing the ribbon.
ReplyDeleteKind people are our saving grace. It was lovely these kind folks brought you gifts and it certainly does lift our spirits. Enjoy your candy and goodies.
I hope your roommate doesn't flood the room! I had a patient whose foley catheter bag broke/leaked and I did a face plant when I walked in the room and slipped on the urine...face down into it! Yep, I got the stories.
I hope the New Year brings good news and a permanent trip home. A kitty is waiting for you somewhere out there!!
Paranormal John
I was never charming nor perfect, but my sarcasm is an ongoing gift (you already knew that). You can strongly indentify with all the crap (and pee) that I'm going through - - because you have endured similar things...and far worse! At least I didn't fall in the pee.
DeleteHopefully I'll see light in the new year....and a kitty. 😺
Honestly, I surprised-- but delighted to hear about your unexpected blessings, Jon. That chocolate reindeer is adorable!
ReplyDeletePS - You're not the only one relieved that Christmas is over. On to 2026 ... fingers crossed!
That chocolate reindeer made me smile - - and so did you when you said you're relieved Xmas is over. I'm severely depress over many things, but onward to 2026.
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DeleteI'm so glad there was a nice spot in the season for you! You deserved at least that. And a lot more.
ReplyDeleteMy Christmas was so dismal that those gifts were the absolute highlight of the holiday. I really did deserve it. 🩷
DeleteThat was so nice of those people in your facility to make sure your Christmas was noted. I wasn't even there but it made me feel good just reading about it. I would have sent you something but I sent you a gift a year or so ago (a book) but you never acknowledged receiving it (which I know you would if you did receive it). That was back when you were being moved around to different facilities so I assumed it got lost. I want you to know though that I wish you always the best. By the way, are you on Threads? That is interesting and will help you while away your day until you can escape.
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I'm so sorry about the book, Ron. I've been in so many hospitals and facilities that I honestly can't remember them. It makes my head spin.
DeleteNo, I'm not on Threads. Blogging is about all I can handle.
Did that book happen to be about the Romanovs? If so, I remember someone giving it to me, unwrapped. I still have it. 🩵
What a wonderful surprise from them! Just goes to show that sometimes people can be and are giving and kind.
ReplyDeleteMy greatest wish for you is that you can finally go home where you belong.
Caring people really do make a positive impact, and it really made a difference for me on this dreadful holiday.
DeleteKim, if I ever get home again, I will NEVER leave, no matter now sick I am. I left a year ago because of back pain - and look at me now. Truly a nightmare. 🩷
Caring people that's for certain, Jon, and nice that the gifts and treats added some joy to your otherwise dismal holiday.
ReplyDeleteThere are so many times I have been helped by good, caring people - - like yourself, Dorothy. 🤎
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