PERHAPS MY WINTER FLIGHT

 "Pray that your flight doesn't occur in the winter....." Matthew 24:20

I pray that my flight will come swiftly, because I can't endure much more. There's only one plausible way out.

I'm not jesting, nor trying to extend the drama. I want the agony to finally be finished. 

There are limits to everything. I've had my limit. 

Yesterday, one helluva day. The pain intensifies. The motor on my bed, which is for the adjustment controls, suddenly stopped working. I couldn't control my position in bed. I was completely horizontal - - which causes severe pain in my back and legs. And - while the motor was being fixed - I was in that position for three hours. Thought I'd pass out.

Many more horrible things happened yesterday, but I'll fast forward.

By early evening, the pain was so intense that I was sent to ER. The University of Tennessee Medical center.

Cat Scans.

I have "severe multilevel degenerative changes of the lumbar spine and bilateral hips."

That's the very abbreviated version. I don't want to scare you.

I'm going to see an orthopedic surgeon, but don't know when.

The pain pill that they've been forcing me to take is tramadol hydrochloride, some kind of weird opioid. I've been refusing.

One doctor told me it's not a good pill and there are better alternatives.

Another doctor told me it's a beneficial pill. I reluctantly took one last night. Made me sleep but did nothing for pain.

One thing that INFURIATES me. The spinal/hip problems aren't caused by old age. They are caused due to old spinal injuries. And those injuries were ALL caused by my carelessness. This nightmare could have been avoided.

Whatever you are doing, please BE CAREFUL. One false slip and you could wind up a hopeless, helpless cripple like me.

Enough of this crap.

You're probably bored witless.

Winter storm blew in last night after midnight. Snow. Heavy snow.

And I wile the (very) painful hours away with AI (artificial intellegence).

There's nothing new or interesting about my creations, but I still persist in posting them. I admittedly love my new wolf pictures.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. They are mostly my private thoughts - - which I post for the public.

Go figure.

JON  ❤️

P.S.

I received one card, from Jane in TN (thank you! 😸). The others are delayed (Kim) possibly from bad weather. Just thought I'd update.

( I added one more wolf pic)

SUNDAY MISSIVE

I write to myself, with the hopeful possibility that others will eagerly eavesdrop. I seldom have anything interesting to say. My negatives overshadow the positives.

It's early Sunday morning and Mother Nature is pulverizing this part of Tennessee. Torrential rain, savage winds. Power outages are everywhere. And there is one here in Jamestown.

At dawn I woke up in my hospital bed with a huge jolt. I think I previously mentioned that there's a special air mattress on my bed - - due to my back problems and the wounds on my ass.....I mean my butt.

Well, the power outage sucked the air completely out of my mattress. I awoke from a sound sleep lying on nothing but a metal frame!! The pain in my back was excruciating. I started yelling (extremely out of character for me).

All the people here in this facility were yelling. The old lady in the room next to me was crying (I think she's about 95).

One of the nurses came into my room and used a generator to revive the mattress. Thank God.

The power is still out. My bed is next to the window, but it's an extremely dark day. I can't see anything. I doubt if there will be any breakfast today.

I'm worried about my fragile house in the wilderness. Kind neighbors have been checking it, and that's a great relief.

The xrays for my back and hip were (finally) taken yesterday. I was surprised that they brought the xray machine into my room. More about this later......xrays don't really reveal much when it comes to back/spinal and disc problems.

So how was my Valentine's Day? (you're undoubtedly dying to know)

I got an unexpected package from my dear friend Linda in Santa Rosa, California. Cards, calendars, cartoons to cheer me up......and See's Candy. See's is the best candy in California (not to mention expensive).

I've known Linda forever. We've been very close friends since we were children. We were born one week apart....she's a week older than me. We've been very close all these years, and she knows all of my secrets (believe me, I have plenty).

The local school children brought bags of goodies for all the people here at Physical Therapyland. Candy Kisses, mints, and heart-shaped cakes. A very sweet gesture.

And how are my AI (artificial intelligence) projects going?

I know you're breathlessly waiting.

My latest efforts.

I've tried to make some romantic scenes with a cupid hovering in the sky.....but cupid looked stupid.

I tried putting some birds in flight, but they looked like they were going to crap on the people. SO, I removed cupids and birds...and everything looks good.

A sweet old-fashioned romance.

 

My cat pictures are looking better this time.

Anyway, thanks for dropping by.

The power keeps going on and off. We were eventually served breakfast. It is starting to snow!

Jon, with luv ❤️

I have no doubt this missive enchanted you