I'm losing track of the days, hours, minutes.....
I almost deleted my previous post because it was filled with complaints and negativity. I removed my latest post about "The Merry Widow". I figured nobody would like it.
Music videos, AI images, and complaints will get me nowhere.
It's Memorial Day Weekend! The unofficial beginning of summer....
....and I'm nothing but an obsolete ghost, drifting helplessly in limbo. Too exhausted to care. Wishing I would.....
(you fill in the blank)
So - - -
This morning they served me breakfast. Coffee, orange juice, cereal, sausage, and French toast with blueberry topping.
I was just getting ready to eat, when
SUDDENLY
for no discernable reason, my air mattress started deflating!!!!
Within thirty seconds, I was on the frame of the bed looking up at the breakfast tray.
I managed to press the Call Button. Nobody came. I started yelling (which is out of character for me).
A nurse's aide finally came. She pressed a button and the mattress slowly inflated. I was on table-level again!
Why did it deflate? Nobody knows.
The unexpected deflation took the joy out of my breakfast. I ate quickly, hoping I wouldn't deflate again.
Sometimes I wonder if God is laughing at me.
Another unexpected surprise yesterday. Got a letter from the dermatologist. My surgery is scheduled for.....get this....
July 14th!
I have a cancerous lump on my arm. It bleeds profusely every day. My arm is hurting - - (hopefully only) from the tight, heavy bandages. I'm afraid to use my right arm, because any movement could cause a hemorrhage ( it's happened several times before).
I sure as hell can't wait until July.
I told one of the head nurses yesterday. They will contact the doctor on Tuesday (after the holiday) and explain that I can't wait that long.
The crappy adventures never end.
Jon, permanently deflated 🖤
Thanks to those who dislike my beautiful AI images, I have lately been compelled to make some disconcerting images. They reflect my dismal mood.
Close your eyes, if they might annoy you....
A perfect day for a picnic
Teacher, on the last day of school
Swan Lake on a diet
The honeymoon might be over
The fourth stage of narcissism
The disgruntled bridesmaid
....and some lavender pictures, just for your dismay....
What the barn owl saw
The cattle's secret
(sorry if you're offended - it's only an innocent AI image)
"Sometimes I wonder if God is laughing at me."
ReplyDeleteNo.
Though he may be laughing at that air mattress.
That's plausible.....but He might have deflated the air mattress.
Delete😄
Deletethecontemplativecat here. Sigh. You are truly in a nest of pain and fear. What is it about medical care? About insurance?
ReplyDeleteI have been losing my balance and walking with a walker is essential, and I wear a head protector (one used by soccer players). too many falls, too many head injuries. I had some MRI tests run on April 12, was waiting to hear the results. I called the neurologist about the results, and the man James (2nd language) said that they didn't have the results as the MRI place didn't send them. I seriously doubt this. I see the neuro. for botox shots for migraines on June 12, and was told by James who nearly impossible to understand that they would contact the place.
Why oh why does the ins. world look at us as a number?
I never knew what a complicated, frustrating maze the medical industry was until I got seriously ill in 2023. It's been an incredibly tough journey ever since.
DeleteThey probably have the results for your tests. I had to wait a month to get the biopsy results from my arm.
I sorry that you have to contend with such difficulties. Alas, I think we are considered 9nly as numbers.
I'm sorry for the typos. My arm hurts while typing
DeleteNo offense taken, Jon. I'd love to eavesdrop on your thought processes to create these images, particularly the first. The school teacher made me laugh out loud! Yes, I'd the same thoughts about the 40th Anniversary from last time, but thought it would be presumptuous to comment.
ReplyDeletePS - Maybe momentarily deflated, but certainly not permanently.
I have a lot of fun creating these things, and I make myself laugh.
DeleteFor the first picture, I thought of picnics since it's Memorial Day Weekend.
I created several schoolteacher images, but this was the funniest one.
I have four pictures of couples on a cliff.....causing imaginations to go rampant.
Ha! I suppose I'm not completely deflated. 😺
Dearest Jon,
ReplyDeleteI’m so sorry that you are still going through all of this. Keep your fire and defiant spirit, as I know that’s what will pull you through this. I always get a little nervous when you haven’t posted for a while. But please don’t give up! Many of us here DO CARE! Even though we’ve never met, I do feel like I know you. As I’ve said before, you and I have lived very parallel lives. Sometimes it’s scary, when you write about your youth, it sounds so much like me. Only a different time and place.
I absolutely LOVE the last two AI images! I like them all but The Cattle’s Secret is my favorite. I’ve always had a thing for cowboys🫣🥵
My grandmother used the word lavender to describe me when I was younger! “He has a streak of lavender in him” she would say. She was born in 1908. I adored all of her sayings and words for describing things. It’s a much more eloquent term to describe men like us! I love it.
Please keep up the fight, Jon. Hugs to you,
Your lavender friend,
Sam
I really appreciate your kind comment, Sam. I'm glad that you feel like you know me. I write in my blog exactly like I think - - it's the "real" me.
DeleteBeing tough and defiant isn't in my nature - - yet, that's what got me through all the tribulations of life. When I was young, haunting the midnight streets of Hollywood and L.A. I learned to fake being tough. It was my way to survive.
So, you like cowboys?
When I lived in Texas, I always wore boots and a cowboy hat. I was a faux cowboy.
Lavender is indeed an old term, but I like it. I'll have to make some more lavender AI images.
It's good to hear from you!
What the barn owl saw in my barn would have given that poor foul a heart attack! I do love the last 2 pics, Jon. Please keep em coming!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of the delay in the arm surgery. That's bullshit when cancer is involved not to mention the profuse bleeding you're experiencing. What the hell is going on with that mattress? It might be possessed. Yikes! I've never heard of an exorcism on a mattress...but this may might require one?
Keep on keeping on, Jon. There's got to be some light at the end of this tunnel.
Paranormal John
You really made me laugh when you said the barn owl would have a heart attack if he saw the antics going on in your barn. I would like to post more "lavender" pictures, but I only use use a few - - so I don't alarm any sensitive people 😮
DeleteI told the head nurse about my July appointment. She's going to contact the dermatologist to request an earlier appointment. I'm also going to tell my wound care doctor about it.
My magical mattress has deflated three times already. The latest deflation before breakfast really shocked me. The adventures never end.
I hope you're doing ok. Take care.
Jon,
ReplyDeleteI for one find your AI images fascinating! I'll have to see what I can do on my own. My sympathies to you being trapped in your rehab/hospital unit. I hate being in a hospital. About this time last year, I was there after I collapsed in the Walmart parking lot while Pat and Glenn were visiting me. Some host I was, spending the next three days in the hospital for evaluation. Of course I got no rest because of my snoring roommate.
I think of you often Jon. I hope someday you can go home to your mountainside home.
Ron
Thanks, Ron, your concern really means a lot to me. I remember when you collapsed in the parking lot. Hospital roommates can be extremely annoying. Fortunately, I don't have any now.
DeleteI'll keep making AI images - - and I'll keep trying to get home!
Take care.