ONE DOWN, A DOZEN TO GO

I'm not in the mood to recreate my previous long blog post, which was "accidentally" deleted (Blogger ate it, I'm certain). My initial enthusiasm and passion is gone. 

One down? I managed to leap over one important hurdle yesterday which had been plaguing my existence. Now I only have a few more dozen to go.

I was in an ice cold panic, dreading the month of March to come. This is difficult to explain, because I don't want to reveal things about my finances on a public blog. In essence, I was completely out of money, with a multitude of bills to pay, and absolutely terrified that my long-overdue "subsidies" would be suspended. I know that doesn't make much sense - it's a long story that has extended beyond two years.

Anyway, everything (miraculously) was in my favor and I'm getting all my money back in March. Now I can pay my bills and eat again.

Unfortunately, there are still so many hurdles to jump over that I'm afraid I'll never make it. I've been completely overwhelmed with an enormous amount of problems these past few months. 

My furnace is kaput and I'm freezing my tootsies off most of the time
My car won't start and I (previously) couldn't afford a new battery and other things. I've been stranded here in Nowhereland for the past three months.
My bathroom keeps flooding because I can't fix the damn leaking pipe, so I have to keep the water turned off.
One of the water pipes froze during the Big Winter Storm and was (unbeknownst to me) constantly leaking. I was recently almost shocked into my grave when I received a $200 (TWO HUNDRED DOLLAR) water bill. My "average" water bill is always under $30.

Due to my extreme health problems and a dead car, I haven't been able to get to town. I simply ordered supplies from Walmart until I ran out of money. I went without eating a thing for many days.

I won't elaborate on my health issues - except to say that I'm going downhill faster than a Coney Island roller coaster. And I won't reveal any more of my problems because it would be too painful to endure.

I was so severely depressed these past few months that I was very seriously considering ending it all. I strongly hinted about it in numerous blog posts - - but people seemed not to care, or just ignored it, or thought I was exaggerating.

Trust me, boys and girls, I don't exaggerate or fabricate. What I write is the real "me".

Anyway, I feel better now that I have an income again, can pay bills and buy food.

change of subject

A few uninteresting photos of my isolated world. The weather is gradually warming.
Dark, rainy, and very windy yesterday, rare sunshine today.

Yesterday, views from the front and back "yards".

.....and today - sunshine!