It was one long helluva week. Kind of like pulling taffy when you're on quaaludes (I don't know this from personal experience, of course - - I just used it as a colorful analogy *smile*).
It's difficult to give a logical update when logicality doesn't exist.
I was so ravaged with pain in my hip, back, and knee that I resorted to compromise. I finally learned that winning the medical game involves forfeiting logic and dignity. I discovered if you don't go along with the Plan and show any semblance of resistance, you're being "marked" as "difficult" and "unprogressive".
I'm now taking massive doses of tramadol (a synthetic opioid) and other such things. On an eight-hour schedule. Not to mention ten or a dozen other meds.
I'm an official druggie. It doesn't help my pain very much, but it makes The Powers That Be, happy.
Everyone is worried about my pain. The nurses decided to send me back to Cookeville Medical Center, which was a complete disaster. I went in the middle of the night. The VERY bumpy ambulance ride intensified my pain. The attendant offered me more opioids but I resisted.
How do I describe the Cookeville adventure?
It was vastly overcrowded. No rooms available. I was left in a hospital bed in a crowded hallway for over five frickin' hours.
A nurse administered morphine. Weird flight to Neverland. Weird. I suppose there's a legal limit to the ride. They didn't give me much. I think.
Morphine makes you forget everything. It's better than an orgasm.
Oops!! I shouldn't have said that. My sincere apologies. I'm a colorful (truthful) writer. Can't help it.
Sometimes I like to shock you, to see if you're still awake.
Then they gave me a ct scan. Cat scans are worthless for intricate spinal problems. And I've had about four of them in the past month.
Okay, the ct scan showed nothing.
I saw the "doctor" for about four minutes. He gave me a STRONG pain pill for the tedious ride back to Signature Health Care.
Back to Square One.
I finally made a compromise with the social workers. I'll stay on here at Signature for perhaps another month or so - - to resume my much-needed physical therapy......IF the insurance companies will let me. I need to be in "reasonable" physical shape when....or if.... I ever get home.
I have a lot more to say, but I've already said enough.
Question - -
If I ever write a memoir, would you read it?
I already have two poetry books on Amazon. One is a book for children, which I really like.
Anyway, mucho gracias for visiting.
Luv ya, Jon ❤️
I've created more AI (artificial intelligence) pictures, all with an autumn theme. Beautiful fantasies.
(I have a lot more)
Praying for you, Jon. 🪻
ReplyDeleteA memoir! Please, yes.
The blonde ai guy looks like Bo Duke. Remember that show? The red haired woman is beautiful, though the black cats at a sinister quality to the picture. Not that cats are bad! 🫢 But do you see it?
I initially wanted the young lady to resemble a witch, but then I decided she should have red hair and she looked beautiful.
DeleteI knew John Schneider before he was famous as Bo Duke. He was auditioning for the Dukes of Hazzard. At that time he was more interested being a singer rather than an actor.
OH, wow! Small world. I am now two degrees of separation from John Schneider. Or is that one? Ha ha 😅
DeleteThe black cats add a touch of mystery. What is she reading? A romance novel......or an introduction to witchcraft?
DeleteShe is reading your book!
DeleteYes, I'd read it. And I wish so much for relief for you. Soon.
ReplyDeleteI think I'll be seeing an orthopedic doctor next week. I don't know what they are planning for me but......I hope for the best.
DeleteIt may have been compromising for you “to go along with the plan” as you put it, Jon, but the insurance company’s determination that you could be discharged was so ludicrous to even be proposed. Hopefully, there will be some future improvement in your mobility. In the meantime, another card is in the mail, hope you get some from fellow bloggers from the info in my recent post.
ReplyDeleteInsurance companies scare the jeeters out of me. They abandon you when they're needed the most. All I want is to get some semblance of "normalcy" back into my life. I'll be looking for fan mail
Delete*smile* 😸
Thanks, Dorothy.
Thank you so much for this update, Jon; you've been on my mind! I won't pretend to know anything about opioids and the like, but have you asked about something called Dilaudid? Years ago -- I can't even remember the reason we were in the ER -- Tom was in such pain he was going into shock. The morphine drip they gave him didn't do a thing until someone suggested the Dilaudid. Supposed to be the strongest. Like the John Lennon's lyric, "Whatever gets you through the night ..."
ReplyDeletePS - A memoir? Absolutely! I still have Love Letters to Ghosts sitting on the book shelf behind me.
I've always been extremely cautious of medications and tried to avoid them. I'm presently in a panic about all the meds they're giving me. It's something very new to me.
DeleteI never heard of Dilaudid. If it's very strong, I'd be very cautious. At this point, I'm confused and frustrated.
I now have a revised edition of Letters to Ghosts, which has a better cover. I'd love to write two memoirs - one about my childhood...and one about the reckless years.
Tom's daughter-in-law is an ICU RN ... said they give it to end-stage cancer patients, yet Tom had little-to-no averse effects. I suppose much depends on the dose, but I just wanted to put it out there.
DeleteI surely hope and pray that they can give you some permanent relief for your pain Jon.
ReplyDeleteWhen I broke my ankle they gave me Dilaudid, and it took two weeks to completely get out of my system, I was delirious.
Let's hope they can come up with a game plan, to keep you in rehab and get your strength up if they are intent on returning you home sooner than later.
Have you had a MRI yet ? I would think that would have been foremost in your pain management plan,, it's all so frustrating.
Stay strong Jon, you got this !!!
Love the pictures, beautiful colors.
Hugs,
~Jo
Dilaudid sounds very scary to me. I don't know if I'd dare to risk it. I honestly have no concrete clue about what's in store for me - - or if I'll be allowed to stay here at physical therapy.
DeleteI've never had an MRI. They've only given me cat scans and pet scans.
I really love the pictures, too - especially the autumn colors.
Thanks, Jo.
I would think an MRI would tell them in more detail what's going on with your back. But they do what they want to do and what the insurance companies say they can do. *sigh*
ReplyDeleteDo what they say and maybe you can stay longer. You do need to be in better shape to go home. I like your AI pics. Sweet black cats. I have had several. ;)
I've never had an MRI and I'm worried about what the insurance companies will dictate. I feel like I'm being closely watched....and I'm trying not to make a false step. I presently can't go home in the bad shape I'm in.
DeleteI've only had one black cat, Bosco, and he was really sweet - but in bad health.
As far as I know the MRIs are the most expensive, so it stands to reason the insurance companies usually refuse to cover them. :(
DeleteJon, I don’t know how you deal with that never ending pain?!! You’re right about trying to get as strong as you can before you go home. This is a stupid question that you’ve probably told us before, have you ever gone exclusively to a pain management doctor? I don’t know if these types of things help. I wish for you to get the best drug cocktail to stifle your pain! How’s the weather? There is the grass green yet? Your photo’s take me to a place of calm and nostalgia.
ReplyDeleteI've never been to a pain management doctor (yet). My biggest concern right now is to find out what is exactly causing this exasperating pain.
DeleteThe weather has been mild here - - in the 50s and 60s during the day, and often around freezing at night. I haven't seen any green grass yet. Spring is about three weeks away.
I love the autumn theme in my AI pictures.....calm and nostalgia, indeed.
thecontemplativecat here. Wow. Jon, this is incredible. I admire you for your perseverance. The pain sounds intense and non-stopping. I will pray for you everyday. I promise. I am allergic to morphine, so there few painkillers for my chronic migraines.
ReplyDeleteI never thought I had strength or perseverance, until I managed to survive these past (almost) two years. Prayers have definitely helped me.
DeleteI never knew that morphine could cause an allergy. It made me feel uncomfortably weird.
My mother had frequent migraines. I get ocular migraines, which effects my sight.
Or is it "affects"? I'm a poor speller.
DeleteJon hang on and turn that corner.
ReplyDeleteDo as much physical therapy as you can stand and get mobile in some way, even if it only means flapping your arms.
Hoping for the best outcome for you.
-Rj
I'm dreading the coming week, because I don't exactly know what's going to happen. It all depends on the insurance companies and social workers.
DeleteHopefully I'll be able to stay and complete my (much needed) physical therapy. I'm ready to flap my arms...*smile*
I'll keep updates.
What a friggin nightmare this must be for you, Jon! The PT is essential, trust me!
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, to answer your question, I most definitely WOULD read your memoir should you ever decide to write it.
I am really living these AI art creations - please keep them coming!!
- Kim
loving (not living lol)
ReplyDelete- Kim
I definitely need to complete my physical therapy before I go home. Right now I'm regressing and feeling like I'm in limbo.
ReplyDeleteI always seem to be the last one knowing what's going on. I'm more worried about losing my mind than my physical capabilities
Well, I would like to be living in my AI art creations. It would be a better world. I try to express my inner-most feelings.