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Post title sounds like a cheap horror movie ploy. It's my cheap ploy. Last night was a reasonable facsimile of a horror movie, I suppose.
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Thunderstorms all night long. Thunder rumbling. Lightning flashing in the window by my bed. The cancerous "wound" on my upper arm started to bleed, as usual, seeping through the bandages, as usual. Nothing new. Daily (nightly) occurrence.
This is the blood "seeping" through the bandages onto a towel - - it hasn't really started bleeding yet. I endure this EVERY DAY. How would you like to go through this daily ???? No exaggeration.
Photo taken last night.
Bad Part
The only night nurse on duty is the (extremely) incompetent one. Is perpetually clueless. And has an EXTREMELY potent hillbilly accent that I can't understand.
Starts ripping bandages off, unraveling me like a mummy. Blood gushing everywhere.
"What should I do?" "How should I wrap it?"
I understood that. I'm nearly fainting.
"Maybe I should call the Hospice nurse...." she suggests.
"OK," I reluctantly agree, desperation.
Hospice is shit. They're eagerly waiting for me to die.
Hospice Nurse arrives in about an hour...in a raging thunderstorm.
"Why do you want radiation therapy?" she demands.
So I can live and kill you.
"So the bleeding will stop," I tell her.
She is no frickin' help at all.
My radiation treatments start....supposedly.....next.....Monday.....29th
See my previous posts
IF I get the radiation, I'm dumping Hospice. They're complicating everything.
I'm losing an enormous amount of blood - - ever since April. APRIL!!! Spring.
Result? Extremely low blood pressure, constant fatigue, dizzy, queasy, fainting, migraines, chest pains and burning.....
Secretly I ordered Iron pills and B12 vitamins from local Walmart...take them daily. I also ordered dried fruit and mixed nuts for nourishment.....and a jar of chocolate peanut butter. Yes, chocolate. I eat these things at night.
Better than the crap they serve here.
I've got to get outta here.
Alive.
Jon, half dead...but nerves of steel......❤️ Endurance
More autumn pics in my next post.....just to irk you.
Even through bloody hell, my talents thrive. 😈
That looks dangerous. I suppose that didn't need to be said. It is obvious. For you and for them. Why are they allowing a man to just bleed? Will the radiation stop it? Maybe they don't know how to stop it, but if that is the case they should tell the patient. It is unbelievable. Why is a nurse asking you how to wrap a bandage? None of this makes sense.
ReplyDeleteI have been through more hell than snybody could believe. The oncologist/radiation doctor told me radiation therapy will shrink the wound and stop the bleeding. This is why I wanted this treatment rather than surgery.
DeleteThat one night nurse here scares me. She knows nothing.
It is beyond perplexing, I can understand your frustration with the whole ordeal. My two months in rehab were the worst of my life, although I did understand it was the best place for my recuperation. Five months and no progress would drive me up the wall. Hopefully, your return home will be forthcoming.
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DeleteThis seemingly endless ordeal is a genuine nightmare. I honestly don't know how I survived. If I don't start the radiation on Monday 29th, I'm going to dump Hospice and request a hospital trip to the ER. It's my legal right.
My only goal is to get home.