I made this video several years ago and was never satisfied with it. Yesterday I completely revised it. Of course, I'm still not satisfied......but that's my impossible nature.
The subject matter will undoubtedly irk some people and I can understand that. I don't expect anyone to fully identify with what I attempted to convey.
We would have to reverse time and travel back to the turbulent years of my wild and destructive youth - - when I haunted the midnight streets of Hollywood and L.A.....living in the hardcore underworld that harbors unholy secrets.
It was a world of good people who abandoned reality and took lethal detours that banished them to the unrelenting realms of hell. I lived in their company - - the druggies, the dealers, the male hustlers, seedy pimps and hookers......and those misfits who were merely addicted to delicious nightmares.....
We were all fallen angels.
I knew right from wrong. I had a Biblical upbringing. I was fully aware that every sin I comitted was a blasphemous act against God. But I craved adventure - - I was addicted to danger and (at that time) had an undeniable death wish.
I wouldn't expect anyone to understand. Today, I look back at those years with horror.....yet, I have absolutely no regrets. I'm glad I had unconventional experiences, and adventures that few people ever dared to imagine.
There is so much more I'd like to tell, perhaps to release the private demons.....I'm a complex enigma.
In the video, I'm remembering all those fallen angels that couldn't find any way to turn back.
Perhaps......just perhaps I was lucky.
Thanks for reading this, Jon
Video is best viewed full screen and full volume
Music-
"Dark Spanish Symphony"
by Angelo Badalamenti
Powerful! I love the audio you've chosen, too.
ReplyDeleteI've shared with my friend (non-blogger) who read and loved your book, "Love Letters to Ghosts."
Wow! Thank you so much, Myra. I'm always delighted when my humble efforts are appreciated. Also thanks to your friend.
DeleteThe sound track was wonderful, I've saved it. I've known more than a couple fallen angels, through my practice and life. I found them all to be worthy of respect and love. Who among us would not have been there, were circumstances different.
ReplyDeleteHope you are well, Jon.
I'm thinking of heading north, I have a friend in Anchorage, and the weather there is more to my liking. It's been several years since I've been back.
Cheers, my friend.
I love the sound track, too. It was originally in the 1990 movie "Wild at Heart" and also used in a PBS documentary about the Donner Party.
DeleteI'm feeling well, my next CT scan will be on August 29th.
The heat and humidity is annoying. Anchorage seems like a great place to go.
Take care and enjoy the cooler climate!
I really liked your video and the music you chose was perfect to accompany it. I found it rather sad, but melancholy at the same time if that makes any sense? I have known my share of "fallen angels" in my time and I was once one myself so I DO relate to what you are conveying.
ReplyDeleteKeep on keeping on, my friend!
There are few people who understand me, and you are one of them. The music is definitely sad and melancholy -- and It's a perfect accompaniment for the video.
DeleteMany of the fallen angels that I knew had tragic ends.
I was lucky.....
Luck? No. Luck is random. You were preserved on purpose. Still, now. Here you are. Why?
ReplyDeleteI honestly think I had a guardian angel.....or else I would never have survived.
DeleteI believe you. Guardian angels are real.
Deletethecontemplativecat here. exquisite video. You are amazing. That could be enlarged and then put on a loop. I'd use it. You are in my prayers. I promise.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I appreciate your comment!
DeleteWhat a powerful video, Jon, and I was not offended by anything in it so wondered why you thought some folks might be. Hope the heat and humidity have eased a bit and that the water continues to be working. You have certainly had an interesting life and having no regrets is the only way to live.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Dorothy! I thought that the video might puzzle some people, so I decided to explain my purpose for making it. Then I was thinking that my wild and unconventional youth might be offensive. Anyway, I'm honest *smile*
DeleteIt's still hot and humid - - and there was a power outage yesterday (which inspired my SOS)....but at least I have water.
What is wrong? Why the SOS?
ReplyDeleteI was in a bad mood....with numerous problems. Will explain on my next post. I'm ok.
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