LONE WOLF

Lone Wolf Concerto?

A loner in the wilderness - - decidedly spartan, but sophisticated enough to thoroughly enjoy Wagner's Gotterdammerung and the works of Dostoevsky.

That's me.

I've always been a contradictory enigma. Many people can't understand me. Truthfully, I often can't understand myself.

"Why do you want to live totally alone in a rural area, with no human contact?"

That's a question I've been frequently asked lately.

It's my choice - - something I've always wanted and something I've done with absolutely no regrets.

It's admittedly difficult, fraught with inconveniences, complications, and things unexpected. But so is life, no matter where you live.

"But, Jon, how can you live without friends, neighbors, people in general? We need human contact."

Dismissing human contact has given me strength. Throughout my entire life I have never needed another person to make me feel whole. I'm my own best friend. Most people crave to depend on others, and I think it's a sign of weakness.

I certainly don't shun other people. At this late point in my life, however, I value my privacy more than ever. I still have relatives and many friends that are long - distance. I prefer it that way.

"Jon, you're all alone. What if you have a medical emergency?"

I was very - and I mean EXTREMELY- near death on June the 1st. I managed to call 911 and was saved. So what?

You can live around a multitude of people and still drop dead. Life is a gamble.

Don't assume that I was a loner my entire life. My life has been extraordinary - - filled with more adventures and incredible journeys than most people ever dreamed of. I've had an extremely unconventional existence filled with glorious opportunities, a myriad of friends (and relationships). I played a piano concerto with a symphony orchestra, performed with chamber orchestras throughout Southern California, and was also a pianist soloist and accompanist.

I also later did an enormous amount of freelance writing and was surprisingly successful. I also published two books of poetry (available on Amazon). One is for children.

My years in Hollywood afforded me to hustle on the sleazy hardcore midnight streets.....and attend parties in Beverly Hills mansions.

I had one helluva life, with glorious heights and horrifying depths of despair. I'm thankful that I experienced it and grateful for the memories.

Now, I am desperately trying to recover from a heart attack and a malignant tumor that nearly killed me. I'm not in the clear yet.

But I'm fervently hoping I can soon return to my home in the wilderness - - to savor the astonishment of Mother Nature and the comfort of peace and privacy.

                 Jon

I'm not going to reply to your comments until I find out how to disable auto-correct. It keeps changing the words that I type.

P.S. Well, I've spent the good part of an hour trying to disable auto-correct. Nothing works. I'll simply have to toletate it.

DAMN!!!